I'm not entirely sure what the last blog post was about. I'm so bad at blogging. On the one hand I feel like I have a lot of really hilarious stories and moments and really good tings to say and to write down but my ADHD is so bad that even if I remember what i was going to write I barely ever remember to actually sit down and write it.
It;s thew worst mix ever, being someone who loves to write and consistantly forgetting everything I want to write just as I sit down to write it if I remember to sit down to write at all.
I moved in with My sister recently in an effort to save money and really as a half way house between the apartment I shared with Chrispy and the house that I have been yearning to live in since I was forced to move out. Living here with her is, not for me what it is for her. she says it's like living in the dorms again and will be so cool and stuff and all it is for me is a huge cramped inconvinence.
What makes it worse is that I feel like i have no one to complain to. And like some sort of poorly built machine I have a venting shaft and it is called complaining. It's fun it's relieving and cathartic and I feel liek I have no one to complain to about how much I hate living here. Chrispy's granddad died yesterday, but he's hanging in but it just feels like we're sitting at the bottom of a big hole and we've tried everything but waiting to get out of it. And now we have to wait and the wait is fucking miserable.
I started listening to a podcast called "RISK" it's a story telling podcast and I absolutely love it. I want more stories for myself. I want to go out on the weekend and bar hop with a bunch of strangers and get out of some crazy stuff and have MORE stories to constantly laugh about. As soon as the hour is appropriate I'm going to walk over to charlie's and insist the two of us cause some trouble this weekend or at the worst at least by next weekend.
I am two semesters away from graduating. I don't feel scared by it coming up or terrified or worried. Just satisfied. I've had a great time in college and I've been here just long enough that I won't overly miss it nor will I feel I graduated too early or too late. Just in time I like to think. My last two semesters will be peaceful and filled with the stuff I want to do instead of papers and exams and worrying about things I'll be building and painting and creating things which is so much more fun than that math degree i foolishly thought I would be pursuing 7 year ago.
I'll go more into college the past 8 years what I think I've learned the most from hilarious and fucked up stories and so forth every day this week in an effort to make up for all the long wasted months of me not posting.
right now I think I'l stretch and look into taking a walk.. a nap or playing more League of legends.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Monday, November 1, 2010
Finally Belonging Now if I could get some free damn time
I was pleased as punchy to find out that Bill moved back to Texas.
I was feeling poorly because I loved CCBC's theatre space so much and had such great memories there but I was very conflicted seeing everything i had built there look like crap. It looked like crap and it had my name on it. Other people were seeing the crap and thinking that I had built it like that not caring that it looked like garbage and that it was unsafe.
I couldn't stand being called in to do hours that didn't even pay me enough to cover the gas money that it took to drive me there. I left everyday angrier and angrier. I stopped showing up to work on time and the little respect that I had for someone I percieved to be in a more knowledgable position than myself all but vanished.
The huge woofers above the stage casted constant light shadows all over the stage and made focsuing lights on the catwalk virtually impossible. The poor wjobs of welding embarassed even me and I'm not a pro yet. The scale models were not consistant in size throughout the same model and were poorly constructed almost as if the ideas of the set had not been throughly planed. Drafted plates went by ignored. The paint jobs were consistantly terrible!
None of our equipment was being updated or maintained. Drill bits were being melted and not replaced. Every paint brush was at least two years old whispy and falling apart. There were no stock flats or stock anything for our construction larder. The prop trailer is a mess, the shop is a mess everything is filthy. The rigging system had been broken and not even glanced at to be fixed. The lights weren;t standardized so the "meager" light hang for standard events looked spotty and terrible.
The man let CCBC go to hell.
I finally met the new guy and he seems great! He's smart and funny and knowledgable and he cares about the job, he cares about doing th ebest job he can. I'm excited to be able to work with him.
Over at UMBC meanwhile I have entered the semester before my final year. I'm closing in on all the 400 classes that I haven't had oppourtunites to make and I'm so happy. I have finally gotten to meet The infamous teacher in the costume shop who was on sabataical. And I'm being given sewing jobs and learning more every day. I finally feel like I've gotten something significant done with my time.
If only I could do this in all my classes.
I have also been having a lot of teeth problems ( two teeth to be pulled next monday) so I have dragged my feet in getting over to ccbc and refilling out the paper work to get me put back on pay roll. I'll be damn sad if I miss all the construction. I hope the new guy understands.
P.S I pulled out my makeup box today and did a really insane skull for halloween I stunned a bunch of kids. Some people thought it was a mask until I moved and I even scared one kid so bad he cried.
Yay!
_Liz
I was feeling poorly because I loved CCBC's theatre space so much and had such great memories there but I was very conflicted seeing everything i had built there look like crap. It looked like crap and it had my name on it. Other people were seeing the crap and thinking that I had built it like that not caring that it looked like garbage and that it was unsafe.
I couldn't stand being called in to do hours that didn't even pay me enough to cover the gas money that it took to drive me there. I left everyday angrier and angrier. I stopped showing up to work on time and the little respect that I had for someone I percieved to be in a more knowledgable position than myself all but vanished.
The huge woofers above the stage casted constant light shadows all over the stage and made focsuing lights on the catwalk virtually impossible. The poor wjobs of welding embarassed even me and I'm not a pro yet. The scale models were not consistant in size throughout the same model and were poorly constructed almost as if the ideas of the set had not been throughly planed. Drafted plates went by ignored. The paint jobs were consistantly terrible!
None of our equipment was being updated or maintained. Drill bits were being melted and not replaced. Every paint brush was at least two years old whispy and falling apart. There were no stock flats or stock anything for our construction larder. The prop trailer is a mess, the shop is a mess everything is filthy. The rigging system had been broken and not even glanced at to be fixed. The lights weren;t standardized so the "meager" light hang for standard events looked spotty and terrible.
The man let CCBC go to hell.
I finally met the new guy and he seems great! He's smart and funny and knowledgable and he cares about the job, he cares about doing th ebest job he can. I'm excited to be able to work with him.
Over at UMBC meanwhile I have entered the semester before my final year. I'm closing in on all the 400 classes that I haven't had oppourtunites to make and I'm so happy. I have finally gotten to meet The infamous teacher in the costume shop who was on sabataical. And I'm being given sewing jobs and learning more every day. I finally feel like I've gotten something significant done with my time.
If only I could do this in all my classes.
I have also been having a lot of teeth problems ( two teeth to be pulled next monday) so I have dragged my feet in getting over to ccbc and refilling out the paper work to get me put back on pay roll. I'll be damn sad if I miss all the construction. I hope the new guy understands.
P.S I pulled out my makeup box today and did a really insane skull for halloween I stunned a bunch of kids. Some people thought it was a mask until I moved and I even scared one kid so bad he cried.
Yay!
_Liz
Monday, November 9, 2009
catch Up
I have completely and utterly been ignoring my blogs. This was never my original intent and late and night when I can;t sleep io definitly beat myself up for not posting more often but because of everything that's been happening lately i think I can excuse my self.
Two weeks ago, monday morning, my father died. My dad died. I don't like saying father he wasn't just my father he was my dad and my best friend and everything cool and knowledgable all rolled into one. he was the kind of guy you would call if you needed help on who wants to be a millilonaire. So that sucked.
Then my laptop's charger busted and I couldnt' charge my laptop anymore so that effectively shut off my ability to update out on the go. I have an ipod but I have to be near and open network to get on line and who the hell updates a blog from a damn i pod? That's stupid.
so I just haven't been updating but there's a lot I want to do with this space even if no one ever reads it.
So I will starting tonight.
Two weeks ago, monday morning, my father died. My dad died. I don't like saying father he wasn't just my father he was my dad and my best friend and everything cool and knowledgable all rolled into one. he was the kind of guy you would call if you needed help on who wants to be a millilonaire. So that sucked.
Then my laptop's charger busted and I couldnt' charge my laptop anymore so that effectively shut off my ability to update out on the go. I have an ipod but I have to be near and open network to get on line and who the hell updates a blog from a damn i pod? That's stupid.
so I just haven't been updating but there's a lot I want to do with this space even if no one ever reads it.
So I will starting tonight.
Friday, June 19, 2009
King Snapper and The Turtles of The Round Shell
So I have started research on my next little big project. Only I would really like it if I could actually get at least 3 of the 25 pictures completed.
I gave a turtle to one of my friends and out of the conversation about it and the name of it [ one Lancelot ] came the idea hinted at by the title and the pictures I am sketching out around this really crack me up. I like parodying things and being able to parody ALL the lore about King Arther and the Knights is too much for me to pass up. So as i make progress on it I'll remember to update with some pictures and content on my newest and probably more asinine of projects.
I gave a turtle to one of my friends and out of the conversation about it and the name of it [ one Lancelot ] came the idea hinted at by the title and the pictures I am sketching out around this really crack me up. I like parodying things and being able to parody ALL the lore about King Arther and the Knights is too much for me to pass up. So as i make progress on it I'll remember to update with some pictures and content on my newest and probably more asinine of projects.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
The Hell That is This Theatre
I want to make sure you understand that THIS theater specifically means the theater I cam unfortunate enough to be sitting in right now.
Which isn't fair of me to complain about because I love working in theater. I love THIS theater. It's a gorgeous space, I'll put pictures up sometime. The acoustics are impressive, it has an actual catwalk and a rigging system with FOUR count them four curtain legs a cyce and a hideous orange main rag. I love this theater. If I had to work here for years I wouldn't mind so much.
I've been here for 4 years now. It's just a community college theater, nothing super impressive but theater brings joy to me and so I don't care where I am to do it. I'm just a temp hourly tech at the moment.
My boss on the other hand I could pretty much do without. He's a nice guy but to be honest. He has assumed the position of the Technical Director but he has a Masters in Acting. This is not a slight against acting majors, or people with master's in acting. To be completely honest if you devote all your time to getting a Masters in acting there is SOMETHING FROM THE TECHNICAL THEATER SIDE you are just going to be missing. My boss is missing it in ACES. The majority of the stuff he ends up building on his own either breaks or has very poor stability. His building skills however today are not what I am going to gripe about.
We awrr Gavered Hewa Today to talk of Mawige.
I get e-mails from my boss once a week asking me to work some random event or time spot. Usually the time has asks me to show up is two hours before I actually need to be there to an hour or two after I actually leave. There is no information ever given about the activity I will be engaging in while I am AT work and if I ask any questions like maybe..
Me: "Hey B- What am I supposed to be doing Saturday when I get there at 10:45?"
B-: "You uh, I uh, I'm not sure, but they NEED YOU THERE AT 10:45"
Me: "I'll be there at 10 am, but you don't know what they need me for?"
B-: "You just need to unlock everything and turn on the stage lights"
Well that is easy enough for me to do. I get there at 10. I set up my laptop ( I had a paper to write) And I settle down and sit there by myself for FOUR HOURS. Don't get me wrong I finished my paper and for that I am grateful, but there people who needed me there without fail at 10:45 didn't show up until 2:15. They didn't need me there until 2:15, on top of that they needed me to do a lot more than just turn on the lights. I had to run a rehearsal for the messiest dance show I have ever had to sit through.
Apparently my Boss told them that he has a worker who would run both light and sound for them since they could only afford one. So for a week I ran dress rehearsals for a show I didn't know existed and I was pretty much lied to about the work that would have been required of me.
This is not TOO far from the incident that required me to help move an entire opera set up and down FOUR flights of stairs. That I wasn't told about either.
So My Mission for the summer, besides everything else I have lined up to do is to demand some sort of list of activities he will require of me before I accept any more hours.
I could have slept in today. ( I would probably STILL be in bed given the choice)
And When I called him this morning to ask what i was doing, he was in New Orleans.
Grumble Grumble
_liz
Which isn't fair of me to complain about because I love working in theater. I love THIS theater. It's a gorgeous space, I'll put pictures up sometime. The acoustics are impressive, it has an actual catwalk and a rigging system with FOUR count them four curtain legs a cyce and a hideous orange main rag. I love this theater. If I had to work here for years I wouldn't mind so much.
I've been here for 4 years now. It's just a community college theater, nothing super impressive but theater brings joy to me and so I don't care where I am to do it. I'm just a temp hourly tech at the moment.
My boss on the other hand I could pretty much do without. He's a nice guy but to be honest. He has assumed the position of the Technical Director but he has a Masters in Acting. This is not a slight against acting majors, or people with master's in acting. To be completely honest if you devote all your time to getting a Masters in acting there is SOMETHING FROM THE TECHNICAL THEATER SIDE you are just going to be missing. My boss is missing it in ACES. The majority of the stuff he ends up building on his own either breaks or has very poor stability. His building skills however today are not what I am going to gripe about.
We awrr Gavered Hewa Today to talk of Mawige.
I get e-mails from my boss once a week asking me to work some random event or time spot. Usually the time has asks me to show up is two hours before I actually need to be there to an hour or two after I actually leave. There is no information ever given about the activity I will be engaging in while I am AT work and if I ask any questions like maybe..
Me: "Hey B- What am I supposed to be doing Saturday when I get there at 10:45?"
B-: "You uh, I uh, I'm not sure, but they NEED YOU THERE AT 10:45"
Me: "I'll be there at 10 am, but you don't know what they need me for?"
B-: "You just need to unlock everything and turn on the stage lights"
Well that is easy enough for me to do. I get there at 10. I set up my laptop ( I had a paper to write) And I settle down and sit there by myself for FOUR HOURS. Don't get me wrong I finished my paper and for that I am grateful, but there people who needed me there without fail at 10:45 didn't show up until 2:15. They didn't need me there until 2:15, on top of that they needed me to do a lot more than just turn on the lights. I had to run a rehearsal for the messiest dance show I have ever had to sit through.
Apparently my Boss told them that he has a worker who would run both light and sound for them since they could only afford one. So for a week I ran dress rehearsals for a show I didn't know existed and I was pretty much lied to about the work that would have been required of me.
This is not TOO far from the incident that required me to help move an entire opera set up and down FOUR flights of stairs. That I wasn't told about either.
So My Mission for the summer, besides everything else I have lined up to do is to demand some sort of list of activities he will require of me before I accept any more hours.
I could have slept in today. ( I would probably STILL be in bed given the choice)
And When I called him this morning to ask what i was doing, he was in New Orleans.
Grumble Grumble
_liz
Saturday, May 30, 2009
End of The Semester Greens
It could stand for a lot of things that happen to be green. I think we all know the like top three things that could be on that list. I like especially that none of those things are bad. Remember this is not the end of the semester blues.
I'm 80% sure that I passed all my classes and after THIS semester I'm lucky I managed to pull my ass through that small ring of fire. ( for my ass is big and I am quite surprised it fit at all )I'm not stressed about finding a job. This summer rather then fill my resume up with MORE years of life guarding I thought I might take my sociability and need for joke material to the next level and fill in the stereotype of theaters working as waitresses. I'm actually excited to get this going.
I had stayed up super late trying to complete my latest autocad final for thtr 231. Of course I recognize that if I had actually eked out two hours each week i wouldn't have had to do the entire final in three days. That's on me tho. So I finished my final on Tuesday and e-mailed it in and have spent the past week in hedonistic laziness.
I have had a ton of new cool ideas for stand up, web comic, radio AND I am sending my fresh play to the head of my theatre department for possible production. Wouldn't that be neat?
My manifesto for new theatre went well also so huzzah for that.
I am bummed that I missed my chance to go to the Magic The Gathering Pro Tour Austin. Chris is going with my deck. I'm still mildly ticked that despite my efforts to generate a healthy and happy play environment to teach new players a game I really enjoy. I got a large group of friendly players and just a few douche "pro players" act up to ruin in.
Beside standard format is not my style. But I got a lead on a smart new vintage deck, so wish me luck this fall in Boston.
Also Good news all around. I not only got to be the titular voice for Spriggs online machinima, There's an extremely good chance I got a panel at Otakon and I will also be miming again this fall at the MD ren. festival.
I'm such a dork
_liz
I'm 80% sure that I passed all my classes and after THIS semester I'm lucky I managed to pull my ass through that small ring of fire. ( for my ass is big and I am quite surprised it fit at all )I'm not stressed about finding a job. This summer rather then fill my resume up with MORE years of life guarding I thought I might take my sociability and need for joke material to the next level and fill in the stereotype of theaters working as waitresses. I'm actually excited to get this going.
I had stayed up super late trying to complete my latest autocad final for thtr 231. Of course I recognize that if I had actually eked out two hours each week i wouldn't have had to do the entire final in three days. That's on me tho. So I finished my final on Tuesday and e-mailed it in and have spent the past week in hedonistic laziness.
I have had a ton of new cool ideas for stand up, web comic, radio AND I am sending my fresh play to the head of my theatre department for possible production. Wouldn't that be neat?
My manifesto for new theatre went well also so huzzah for that.
I am bummed that I missed my chance to go to the Magic The Gathering Pro Tour Austin. Chris is going with my deck. I'm still mildly ticked that despite my efforts to generate a healthy and happy play environment to teach new players a game I really enjoy. I got a large group of friendly players and just a few douche "pro players" act up to ruin in.
Beside standard format is not my style. But I got a lead on a smart new vintage deck, so wish me luck this fall in Boston.
Also Good news all around. I not only got to be the titular voice for Spriggs online machinima, There's an extremely good chance I got a panel at Otakon and I will also be miming again this fall at the MD ren. festival.
I'm such a dork
_liz
A total REDO
It's not often one gets such a neat redo button. The internet however has a TON of ways to help me succeed in my handy dandy sweet refurbish of my blog.
Of course the title will never change, it's just too accurate to be changed.
BUT I am pleased to say I have a bunch of new ideas and cool stuff to talk about.
But for now seeing as it's 5:40 am I think I'm going to finish watching law and order and start this tomorrow night.
Thanks Peeps!
_lizard
Of course the title will never change, it's just too accurate to be changed.
BUT I am pleased to say I have a bunch of new ideas and cool stuff to talk about.
But for now seeing as it's 5:40 am I think I'm going to finish watching law and order and start this tomorrow night.
Thanks Peeps!
_lizard
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